“Perfect Imperfections”

It’s a tale of the girl

Who chose broken over whole,

Pain over shore, 

Corner and not the core

The world told her

You deserve better
And she just nodded and said
I am making one

Coz she didn’t believe in leaving

Shifting or replacing

But redefining what she had

No matter however bad

Her dedication was one of a kind

She never leaves what she binds
One day her beliefs turned out true
Imperfections are perfect known to few!

    -Himanshi

तुझे कद्र ना समझ आई

जो सच पर रही डॅट्कर हमेशा

आज कसमे झूठी उसी ने है खाई

जिसके लिए अपनो से और दुनिया वालो से लड़ी

आज उसी की नज़रें क्यूँ झुकाई?

प्यार दिया जिसने जहाँ मे सबसे ज्यादा

उसके खिलाफ क्यूँ दी तूने गवाही?

मासूमियत से भरा बनाया था तुझे

फिर कहाँ से ये हैवानियत है आई?

आज पूंछ रही है मेरे दरबार पे आकर

कि ये कैसी किस्मत है मैने पाई

बेटा मैने तो चून चून कर हीरे दिए थे तुझे

पर तुझे ही कद्र ना समझ आई

जिसकी चमक को संझोकर रखना था तुझे

उस हीरे के ज़हेर की की तूने सिचाई

मत पूछ बेटा कैसी किस्मत है पाई

जब की तूने खुद अपनी कब्र की खुदाई!

-हिमांशी

DEAR FEAR

O my dear fear,

I had never seen you, never met you

Still you were there..

Surrounding me in your arms

Protecting me in your cover..

This is what a bird thinks

Living inside a golden cage..

Outside she go, she will fall

That cage is her world and her all..

O fear O fear, I always wanted to meet you dear..

But when I met, you disappeared

You were an illusion, never truly here

Had been faking all these years..

Now I Live on the other side of you..

Facing you was the only thing I had to do

Beyond you I am Happy, Free and True

O fear O fear, my faith killed you dear!

-Himanshi

Thank You!

Punish Yourself for the Wrongs you do…

Praise Yourself for the Rights you do…

I have been doing the first part and left the second one for you…

Aah Darling! You Love me so much,

Never left me doing the first part alone… Thank you!

-Himanshi

"We will Reunite"

I wonder what you dream when you smile in sleep,

Whatever the reason is, I find my peace of mind in it

Although you are resting the same way today, I weep

Coz you have gone into your never ending dreams; dreams too deep

Breaking and fearing inside, I was comforting you
Holding your hand, telling you not to worry was not an easy thing to do
And even in your weakest hour you tried to comfort me too,
Caressing my face, and calming my soul as only a mother can do

You have always been there through all my ups and downs

And all I gave you is hundreds of reasons to frown

I made mistakes and told you about my downfall

You simply nodded and gently replied “so have we all”

Even being hurt, you constantly motivated and strengthened me

Pushing me to be the best that you know I can be

With you around, I flied brave and free

I never felt alone because it was always WE

I miss you more than these words could ever say
I wish you stayed with me forever, so hard I pray

Resting in God's arms now, watching your children here below

He needed a beautiful angel in Heaven and so you had to go

I dream of the day when Heaven's gates open to receive me
with your smiling face and loving eyes, reunited once again we will be

Have a peaceful sleep Momma on that heavens cozy cloud

Coz when I will come, I’ll pamper you and we will laugh out loud..!!

-Himanshi

Worst Year of my Life...

Pl wake me up and say it was a dream

I still cant believe

What this year brought to me

It seems like a dream sad

This year was so bad

Loneliness, pain.. I was so Lost

My mistakes turned my love to frost

Insane I, my mind was fused

the loyal soul was misused

I made my loved ones, hurted ones

And lost those few I had

There is no happiness i deserve

Will die starving for love

I miss you so much Momma

You were my Good Luck charm

No one protects me from this trauma

Some come and they just harm

I wish i could erase this year

and live with my loved ones without fear

with my beautiful Momma back in my life

and also with one, of whom I want to be wife..!

-Himanshi

TURNING FAKE

From old pics to what I see now,

I wonder why it happened and how?

My smile is not the same

Got trapped in some game

 

World out is so unreal

Filled with faces cruel

Now I also smile for name sake

Oh god it makes me so fake!

 

Only thing which is same

Is tear rolling down my eyes

Earlier it was coz of excess laugh and fame

Now it’s all my dead silent cries...

-Himanshi

WON'T LET YOU GO..!!

It kills me to say this but one day I know

Will come a time when I must let you go
The time will come and I always knew it
And no matter how it hurts me I must do it

I must smile and let you walk away
But I don’t want to think about that day
I want to love you all I can
Want to dream you’ll always be my man

Want to hold you every night

Want to pretend it’s all alright

So I put on my blinkers and do not see

I just want to hold you close to me

Want to make memories we never forget

Want to take off you all I can get

Want to look back one day on this time spent with you

And smile and remember that I once loved you

And when I remember I want to be glad

That this was the best time that I ever had

I will treasure each moment, every kiss, every touch

So that when you are gone I won’t miss you as much.

-Himanshi

Was our friendship a burden for you?

I saw a dream

and heard her name

remembered those days

when we were same

Our friendship train

wasn't a game

then why you left me

in the midst of pain

I miss you

and miss my smile

which now for you

is no more worthwhile

Months have passed

Years will go

I will wait for your love

which you will never show!!!

- Himanshi

YOU ARE SPECIAL..!!!

You bring me a feeling

I have never felt before

Feeling of contentment

Happiness and more...

Always and forever

I will love you this long

My heart, My soul

only to you it belongs...

I will be beside you

be a friend or a lover

Let all rain of pains fall on me

I will be your cover...

Being here far from you 

I shrink every minute, die every day

for a moment with you 

of happiness and gay...!!

-Himanshi